brandon novak.

i read your book, in case you ever read this.
idea of what youd say if you read my blog.
"this fuckin little 4th grade faggot is in love with me and reads my book like the bible. this fag loves fucin fall out boy and shit and is so dumb and shit"

so thats my best novak.
and i have to say, it is so accurate i scare my fucking self.
i dont really give a shit right now. im supposed to be rockin out a book review of it right now.

me "i read a book"
teacher "good. are you gonna review it for this month"
me "yep" i was like "FUCK YOU" under my breath.
teacher "whats it about?"
me "a heroine addict whos an inspiring dumbass"
teacher "...why dont you not do that"
me "dude, isnt it supposed to be posted to the school sight tonight?"
teacher "yeah, but you've read no other books over the break?"
me " i read a compilation book about bad times and sex-fests"
teacher "i dont think you should do yours still"
me "im doing it anyways"

i remember thinking of bam right then, thinking of him disregarding his mothers advice to not shove anal beads up his ass. i hadnt watched 2.5 in a fuckin while either. so thats later.

i doubt im ever going to talk about anyone on jackass or whos on sirius 28 faction ever again, but i do listen to it weekly, and i feel people should be in on my madness.


i dont want to go back in time to when i was bad fucking worse
all i am now i fucking better and not gonna try to rewind.
it feels like its five, but i know when its 10, and always wake up at six
lets get out of this bitch town, or out of this room, or out of this fucking mess.
highlight everything you see except what you want to get done
and its not another way to drown in a kiddie pool filled with clothes you wont wear.
over covered and under the covers i think ill try to right down forgotten facts
and forgotten facts arent worse, im just wanting to speed up and slow down
speed up and break down.
and break down in nobodys arms but my own.

cummedyegha