their world broken forward

i woke up this morning and i just fucking wanted to die.
not kill myself, just die.
and i found an out to that in going back to sleep.

i then proceeded to dream about something in my old hood, mcr had just played a show or something, and i screamed "MCR" at their van which was parked nearly out of my sight, and they started running towards me. and im like, i know this is a dream and if i didnt know it was gerard running towards me, id run away. and he just fucking hugged me, and i remember in my dream thinking "fuck it" and grabbing his ass for a second there. it felt good in the arms of the person who wrote this is the best day ever, and cancer, and everything else. anyways, i then ended up at my grandmas house except it wasnt my grandmas house, it wad my buddy wills, but still my grams house. anyways we were with mikey and he was kindof teasing us, and we made some crack about him babysitting us, and then him and will went inside to cover up us going to the mcr show last night and then i had to leave while mikey and will and his mom made breakfast, and im all fuck that. i also remember kicking in the railing of his porch, that was fun. not to much else happened in my dream.

anywho i awoke from this funderfull wish of a dream into more anger and the day kindof just fuckin went downhill from there.
im gonna write another song soon. maybe when i finally plug my sg in. itll be soon, i hope.
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i hope.


cummedyegha